One minute i am making choices on flooring and windows and the next i am getting kicked out.if you've read all my prior blogs this one will hit different.This time i was sure i had found my person, he bought a house we have been renovating.We moved into this house and cracks started to appear... [...]
Update
I haven't checked in for awhile, nothing really to report.I am consistently in therapy that's one update, i go once a fortnight for an hour.I am currently working on my self talk, my inner child, my inner voice that berates and belittles methe voice that plants seeds of doubt, that holds me back. I am [...]
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No matter how deep you bury them…
i feel like a broken record, i feel like i'm running away from my shadow but he doesn't leave.i saw J for the first time in a long time yesterday, and it just feels so strange he smirked how he always does and made a remark he shouldn't have. Last night i dreamt about him, [...]
SOME PEOPLE COME BACK TO HAUNT YOU…
No matter how deep you bury them.It's the end of April, there is currently a pandemic caused by coronavirus and to top it all off J is back,You know the same J who fucked me up 12 months ago? He has moved home and i knew it would be a matter of time before he [...]
Note –
1873, the definition of a gentleman “a gentleman is a human being combining a women’s tenderness with a mans courage”
Valentines Day
Yesterday i wrote him a two page love letter, and grabbed some chocolate it's hard to pick for boys!He opened his letter this morning and i reckon i got 40 kisses goodbye, i was already in a love bubble and then he comes home for lunch with roses and chocolate and my heart just melted. [...]
It’s the principal of things..
Yesterday my friend who prior to my current relationship has hada few rumours involving my current partner.This was before me...Yesterday she text him about a dinner, which we are attending in a group setting..that was a bit unsettling for me, today she snap chatted him in regards to something else.This has made me feel very [...]
I don’t like, that you liked it.
It's been a hot minute since i've written anything in here, but right now my head is mush.I am having doubts for the first time, it's like a million little things and then the final straw is when you notice you partner has liked a single girls profile picture... he thinks it is no big [...]
Triggered…
I have been feeling low for around two weeks now, one instance i even cried.Tiny little memories creep in under my skin and it's like dominos one memory drops then more follow.We went to a pub on the weekend, and something as minute as a stair case has me back tracking to my childhood - [...]
