Yesterday my friend who prior to my current relationship has hada few rumours involving my current partner.This was before me...Yesterday she text him about a dinner, which we are attending in a group setting..that was a bit unsettling for me, today she snap chatted him in regards to something else.This has made me feel very …
I don’t like, that you liked it.
It's been a hot minute since i've written anything in here, but right now my head is mush.I am having doubts for the first time, it's like a million little things and then the final straw is when you notice you partner has liked a single girls profile picture... he thinks it is no big …
Triggered…
I have been feeling low for around two weeks now, one instance i even cried.Tiny little memories creep in under my skin and it's like dominos one memory drops then more follow.We went to a pub on the weekend, and something as minute as a stair case has me back tracking to my childhood - …
Anger is a second hand emotion.
I am writing this, because i feel i have to, for my own sanity.They say to get over anger, you need to find the root emotion or cause.2016 - This is how long i have been holding on to this anger.It all started when you told your boyfriend he was cheating on you with me.He …
I appreciate you.
Dating younger is trialling - mentally. I wake up often and think is this the day he realises i am so much older and leaves?Is this the day he realises he is young, attractive, loyal and kind?But instead I wake up everyday i wake up to a kiss goodbye and knowing he has turned the …
It’s been a hot minute!
For the past few days I have been doubting myself, i decided to come back and read the letter i wrote myself over a month ago and i am so glad i did.I know that i am getting feelings, I know that i feel comfortable, i know that he treats me right, i know that …
Once you fall for a distraction… you’re screwed.
Today marks one month of sleeping with the 21 year old. Last night marks the night I realised, i'm screwed. We were sitting around a fire with friends and I looked at him and in that moment he was so undeniably attractive to me. His smile, his hair, his dark eyes... when have i ever …
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I went on a date… and went MIA.
I've been MIA, i apologise - sometimes i get stuck inside my own head. I went on a date, with a boy who two years ago was asking me for dinner, each time i refused because i didn't feel any physical attraction this time i caved because i thought i couldn't put all my eggs …
A letter to myself
I am writing you this letter now, because i can feel you slowly spiralling.You are about to see your family tomorrow, he moves out next week and you are confused.But i have to remind you, while i still can - there is a reason you are here.You weren't happy, you felt alone, you didn't feel …
Double Life
So my ex is still living with me, he doesn't know i've been sleeping with someone 5 years younger than meand i have to pretend that's the case Friday - Monday.We had sex six times this week, that's more than i've had all year. I thought at first it would be a cheeky kiss, then …
All the times I failed 