Today i got upset - i have no idea why i just decided i was sad today.So i went home for lunch and i cried, i watched Tik Tok videos about self worthand tried to remind myself i am good enough, these people i pour my heart into are just not ready toreceive the love …
I have fallen off the horse…
I have fallen off the horse... and it has bolted 10km down the track...it's nearing 5 weeks since my break up, and this week i am out of wack granted i am hormonalbut i broke the no contact rule, and am finding myself craving J again.J is seeing someone, we both know it's bad but …
Haunting me.
Today is one of those days, when J is haunting my mind.I haven't heard from him in 4 days since the "don't be so emotional" conversation.I look around the males that are available, i look at the ones who chase me and i just can't get past him. I feel like i can never move …
1 MONTH DOWN – 5 TO GO.
I have officially been single one month.I am writing off relationships until i am 28, maybe then i will be older and wiser.In the meantime i am continuing to enjoy my own company, pay my own bills, save my moneylook after my hair and skin and stay away from men who do not deserve me.Here's …
DON’T BE SO – EMOTIONAL.
So he has to do maintenance at my property.He shows up as i am leaving.Sends me a snap, okay i admittedly knew he would so looked to see if he hadthen played it off and replied "thanks just realised i need to change my settings"....Him: WhyMe: i deleted you off everything, if you think not …
DELETE.
So i reached out to J last night, just to ask a quick question - did he use it as a chance to apologise? No.So after a few hours of deliberation i decided i will delete him off everything. I don't think i have ever removed him fully off everything.I know he doesn't have the …
DELETE, AND HOPE I DON’T REPEAT?
Today, i wanted to delete you off social media.Today, i wanted to send you word vomit.Today - i did neither. Maybe tomorrow, or maybe i am holding on to the fact you will come back when your head is where it needs to be.
Side swiped by emotion.
Last night was a tough one, D was out again enjoying himself on Social Media and i was at home watching it unfold.I slept good, woke up early, dressed cute and then he called to ruin my daytelling me someone last night told him in a group chat i've been running him downand saying i …
Let me go.
I have been stuck inside my head, i get the circumstances suck i really do i didn't expect flowers on my door or a ten page love letter but i did expect something, fuck anything.I don't know how i move on from him, like is this meant to be my closure?I know he is a …
That’s low… even for you.
It’s been 24 hours... and I haven’t heard boo from him. Not one word. I am an absolute idiot that I even thought better of him.
All the times I failed 