Mental Load

Today he did another disrespectful thing, he bought a car behind my back
and then planned a trip to a town over an hour away to get the said car.

The part that hurts me is it was never discussed, i don’t know where the money has come from
assuming it has come from the renovation money… $7,000.

I rang C and rattled off my feelings for an opinion on whether i was entitled to feel the way i do.
We discussed the mental load i have taken on and with that i have pledged to stop putting money into his
renovation account, stop micromanaging the money, bills and trades.

I am not going to ask him to do the lawn that’s overgrown and i am not going to do the cooking or the dishes
i will wash my clothes and i will live with myself in mind only.

I have put my tax money into my savings account and i will now aim to add to that each week instead.
I am sick of putting over a quarter of my money into an account for bills and renovations when my partner uses this account to buy alcohol, food and whatever he see’s fit.

I don’t know how not to be offended by his actions, i feel like my feelings are not respected and i am being dismissed.

I have that sinking feeling in my stomach.

J.